|see her little ponytail? lol
it was like|
wrestling a bear trying to get that thing on
Thursday night I finally decided to delete some pictures from my phone. After I had them transfered to the computer, I went through and manually deleted them because there were some I wanted to save. I noticed in one of Kourtlynn's pictures from about 3 weeks of age, there was a slight orange glow rather than red eye. Years ago I had read on a photography board about retinoblastoma and how it's usually first detected from flash photography. I looked it up again and then started taking pictures of Kourtlynn. Her left pupil was yellow/gold in the pictures, while her right pupil was red.
As I mentioned the other day, I got her into the eye doctor that Friday and he didn't find anything to be concerned about except that she wouldn't focus on things. Well, I got her into another eye doctor on Monday, one that specialized in pediatric optometry. She was WONDERFUL with Kourtlynn. She got her to focus and follow her voice and a red bottle. I was really happy about that. Then she dilated Kourtlynn's eyes and checked for anything abnormal. She was able to look at the back of the eye and the top of her eye, and it all seemed clear. She wasn't able to see much of the bottom or the sides, though, so we'll be having an ultrasound done on her eye next week to make sure nothing was missed.
Just in the last few days, I learned A LOT about childhood eye cancer and it was scary stuff. :( I've calmed down quite a bit since her doctor said that she didn't find anything to be concerned about but I know we still have to go through the ultrasound and there's always a possibility something is found. :/ The doctor also mentioned that there was some pigmentation in her pupil, which could be normal for her eye, but could also be abnormal, so they'll be monitoring her every three months to see what it does (I guess. I was kind of confused about this part).
So, because of all this stress, I ate. Like, a lot. I don't usually eat my emotions but this weekend I pigged out. Needless to say, my little experiement failed. I weighed in at 198.2 this morning. 1.2 gain. Good grief. :/
Back on track. Can't keep taking one step forward and a hundred steps back. :/ I need to get to my prepregnancy weight, that's all I want for now. Well, that and I don't want to be this girl again: