I haven't been sleeping well the last few nights. I'm not sure why my sleep isn't very restful, but I feel like I'm waking up every hour or so. My dreams have been strange, too. I can't remember most of them now, but I had a very disturbing one about Ben dying. That one has stuck with me and it makes me a little sick to think that my brain is thinking like that. :/
We've been looking for another dog. Ben loves dogs, but Bettis (our boxer) has always been told to stay away from Ben because the baby was too small and the dog was too big and we were afraid that Bettis would hurt him unintentionally. Now that Ben is older, he wants to pet Bettis and play with him, but Bettis is skiddish around him now. So we decided to get a small dog. I was holding out for a jack russell or a scottish terrier, but Brandon went to look at a different dog with Preston and he fell in love. So, she came home with him. She's a dachshund cross of some sort and the boys have named her Bean.
Tomorrow is my last day of work! Yay! It's sort of bittersweet. I'll miss having adult conversations on a regular basis and I'll miss seeing some of the new friends I've met, but I'm really happy and feel incredibly lucky that we can afford for me to stay home with the kids during the summer. I'm also excited that my diet will be considerably healthier now that I'll have no choice but to eat at home most of the time. The nice thing about living in a very small town is that we don't have fast food restaurants or even a gas station so junk food isn't as easily accessible.
Tomorrow I'm doing another three miler. Hopefully it'll be easier than the three miles I did yesterday! Even when I want to quit, I just won't allow myself too. I'm not sure where this determination is coming from, but it sure is