Lose a Marathon Mini Challenge - Week Six

The mini challenge for this week is:  Love Thy Self. Write yourself a Love Letter.  This may sound corny, but please give it a try. Use this neat website here that lets you write your letter now and schedule delivery for a future date. This can help you focus right now, and again down the road.

I wrote myself a letter Wednesday and I'm having it sent to the future me on my 33rd birthday in September 2013.  I am so proud of the accomplishments I've made in the last 3 years.  I know I gripe and complain a lot about the last 35 pounds, but I truly haven't forgotten where I came from.  I've made some amazing changes and I made sure to remind myself of those things in my letter to myself.  I also told myself that I can do this, I will meet the rest of my goals.  It's taking a lot longer than I'd like to admit and I've fallen back to old habits more times than I can count, but I will get there.

Weight loss is frustrating.  You have this goal and at first, it seems like an unattainable thing.  But then you start doing it, you start succeeding and seeing the numbers drop on the scale, your clothes start fitting better and you realize that it's totally do-able.  But then when you hit a plateau or stall, that goal starts to look impossible again.  And that's where I'm at now.  I remember I went through this when I hit 204 pounds.  I stalled out for awhile and thought I was never going to get out of the 200's.  But I finally did.  This, whatever you want to call it, has been going on for a very long time now and my frustration is obvious with anyone I come across.  I'm thankful that I've managed to keep it off, but the 270 pound me was so long ago, that the 170 pound me is the new "before" that I'm working with, if that makes any sense.  I've been in the low 170's for so long that I don't even remember what it was like to be 270, so that's no longer the "before" me.  I'm now working from my current weight and since it's not going anywhere, it bothers me.  But, I also know what the problem is and I'm working on that.  :)

I can't wait to read the message to myself in a year or so.  I hope that I've become the better person I predicted I would be, physically and mentally.