Okay, before I get too far into this post, I want to address a comment that was made yesterday. I know that my diet is not the cleanest or the healthiest by any means. But it works for ME (well, it used to - I'm just recently getting back into it, so progress is going slow). I'm not trying to be defensive, but I guess I feel the need to explain myself. I am not willing to give up my favorite things. Instead, I work around my favorite things. This is a LIFESTYLE change, not a temporary diet that will get me through until I reach my goal because if that's the case, I will never stop going back to over-indulging on the bad things. Instead, I allow myself a few "naughty" things because if I cut them out completely, I'll eventually lose control.
That is the primary reason why "diets" don't work for most people. If you feel like you're not allowed something, eventually you'll give in to those cravings and most people tend to go overboard. Allowing myself a beer (some people drink wine, I like beer) or two isn't a bad thing. Neither is having one soda. Yes, 390 calories worth of fluid is a little much, probably, but those are my "treats." I'm not having a granola bar and a glob of peanut butter on an apple - yes, those are much healthier choices, but it'd be different if I was having those drinks on top of those regular snacks. I substitute my snacks for fluids. :) And I'm sure my doctor would have a huge hissy fit about my choices, but again, it works for me and I think that's what really matters.
So, as I said yesterday, Karen
at
Losing It and Brigid at
Babbling Bridge nominated me the Sunshine Blogger Award:
Okay, so here are the rules:
1. Include the award log either in your acceptance post or somewhere on your blog.
2. Answer 10 Questions about yourself.
3. Pass the award on to 10-12 other deserving bloggers.
4. Add a link on your post to all the talented winners and comment on their page to let them know they've been deemed amazing.
5. Thank the brilliant soul that recognized your talent and bestowed
this wonderful award on you...and of course link back to them as well.
Now, for the questions (yay, I get to talk about myself - my favorite subject)!
1. What would you most like to change about yourself?
I'm needy. I need to be told just how good I'm doing at a job. I was kind of a teacher's pet when I was younger (before school got more about popularity and less about academics) and I've grown to be an overachiever because being impressive became important to me. I think part of this was because, growing up, I didn't have much else going for me. I was overweight, so I wasn't getting positive attention for my looks - all I had was my brains, so if I needed to hear nice things about myself or my abilities, I just...kissed butt, I guess...
2. What is your theme song?
Wow, I have no idea. I like
Beautiful, by Christina Aguilara. It kind of makes me feel better about myself. I also like
Never Again, by Nickelback because it reminds me of how I stood up to my abusive ex and overcame that part of my life. I'm still scarred by the things I went through, but I got out, and that's the important part. :)
3. One part of your life, a memory, action, etc., that you wish you could surgically remove from your brain.
I guess this goes back to the abusive relationship. Even though I got out and moved on, I'm still scarred. Preston is the most amazing, loving, supportive husband, but I still constantly question my actions - for example: will be running late make him mad (my ex would accuse me of cheating on him if I was even 5 minutes later than I said I'd be). Preston is NOTHING like my ex, but because I spent two years terrified of messing up (and then paying for it physically when I did), it's just become a part of me. And I feel awful for that. I wish that I could lose that part of my memory. I'd never take back those two years because I have my oldest son because of that relationship, but I'd love to forget the hell I went through.
4. What generation do you wish you had been a part of?
The 70's, mostly because of the music. I am a huge Doors fan and I'd give anything to see Jim Morrison live.
5. What was your favorite Childhood Toy?
This wind up Snoopy stuffed animal. Either my mother or my grandmother gave it to me as a child. I have pretty early childhood memories of it. My mom found it in a box of stuff a few years back and gave it back to me. I passed it on to Kaiden, who loved it for a little while, but then grew tired of it so he gave it to Ben.
6. What is your favorite housecleaning chore?
I'd have to say vacuuming or laundry. I absolutely hate doing the dishes. We don't have a dishwasher, so I'm forced to stick my hands in nasty dirty water. Ick.
7. Do you twitter?
I tweet when I remember. I do have an account (follow me @marciacase) but usually I forget to update my status. I don't even read most of the people I follow either (mostly musicians, comedians, or Pittsburgh Steelers football players) because some of those people post ALL. DAY. LONG.
8. Any goals?
To reach my goal weight (135) and to LOVE running.
9. Do you drink margaritas all the time?
Only when we go out to eat. I love them, but they go to my head pretty quickly so one decent sized one is usually my limit.
10. What's the ugliest car you've ever driven and were embarrassed to be seen in?
My first car was a Chevy Nova. It was all muscle car and it smelled like exhaust. I hated it. I guess it wasn't exactly ugly, but it sure smelled ugly. LOL Other than that, I also drove a Buick something or other and a Oldsmobile something or other (yeah, I'm a real car person, can't you tell - LOL) that were butt ugly. My dream car, however (since you asked - oh wait, you didn't but I'm gonna tell you anyway) is an Aston Martin. :) Someday... ;)
Okay, now the 10 blogs I'm tagging are:
Kristina at
My Altered Perception
Jennifer at
The Beginning and the End
Tess at
Because I Want To
Crystal at
Miss Elephantine
Bailey at
Onederland or Bust!
Mindy at
Just a One Girl Revolution
Bethi at
Disney Mommi
Stephanie at
The Loud Redhead
Aimee at
Getting to 150lbs
Melisa at
Just Begin From Here
These ladies all have amazing and inspiring stories to tell. I feel like I know them all so well, from their blogging and from sharing such similar experiences. I love all the blogs I read and it was super hard to choose just 10 for this (I actually kind of hate things like this - I always feel like I'm going to hurt someones feelings. Oh, and I follow far too many blogs to really just pick 10 favorites). I'm always behind on my reading, but I love you all so so much!
My photo food log for the day:
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| yep, had me another one today - 170 calories |
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| pasta and parmasen (again!) - 390 calories |
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| shared a snack of American cheese slices with Ben - 120 calories |
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cheddarwurst with ketchup - 420
cottage cheese - 90
baked beans - 120 |
Yeah, I had another Mt Dew today. I know, I told you it's a bad habit! I have one more in the fridge and after that, I'm not buying anymore. :) I'm cutting it out again. It's not going to be easy, my mouth is already watering, thinking about my next one (see, true addiction) but it's just better if I use those 170 calories on something else - something much more healthier. See...progress. :)
Totally calories for today were 1310. I still have 190 calories to use for the day if I so wish. I'm pretty stuffed after dinner though, so I think I'm done for the day. :)
